For my various breakdowns this week i am truly sorry. This is what bingeing does to me and i really hate being such a downer. Last night was particularly bad, i really thought i was going to die and it terrified me. I'm okay today, after going to the gym (where i did NOT run 6 miles, i ran about 2.5, because i started feeling better) and I'm sorry if i seemed so..selfish and distant. i wasn't even commenting your posts for a while just because of it.
sorry everyone :( i'll be better tomorrow after today's fast i promise you. i promise when i get down to 110 you will get an updated pic of me thinner and smiling, and you can all relax
much much love,
i need to go compose music for the show i'm composing for now.