Sunday, June 13, 2010

i need to apologize

For my various breakdowns this week i am truly sorry. This is what bingeing does to me and i really hate being such a downer. Last night was particularly bad, i really thought i was going to die and it terrified me. I'm okay today, after going to the gym (where i did NOT run 6 miles, i ran about 2.5, because i started feeling better) and I'm sorry if i seemed so..selfish and distant. i wasn't even commenting your posts for a while just because of it.
so yeah...
sorry everyone :( i'll be better tomorrow after today's fast i promise you. i promise when i get down to 110 you will get an updated pic of me thinner and smiling, and you can all relax
much love.
much much love,
so much.

i need to go compose music for the show i'm composing for now.



A@ Please Don't Eat Me! said...

you're fine girl, you are. good luck with composing music! that is amazing.. : )

btw, i linked back to your comment on my last post, i hope you don't mind, i dont know your first name though.. : ( sorry!

A@ Please Don't Eat Me! said...

i think you should try it sasha, even if its only a little bit.. it honestly wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. : )

A@ Please Don't Eat Me! said...

def. go for it.. i know it sounds crazy when you are trying to lose, but anything in moderation is ok to have. like the other commenters said on my post, if you are constantly eating like that, it will have an affect, but if you throw yourself a curve ball once in a while, it'll straighten everything out ; )
but you and i are the same height and weight.. and my fiance thinks im too skinny.. what does your boyfriend think??

A@ Please Don't Eat Me! said...

yea see? we are fine, we just dont know it.. i gained about ten pounds last year and i was SO incrdibly uncomfortable, none of my clothes fit right, i felt sloppy, etc.. but.. my fiance, was like DAYUM GIRL..i think guys really do appreciate a real body rather than a shell of one..