i can't even be a good girlfriend right now. i can't even be a good daughter. i'm going to lose everybody. i'm going to cry.
i think my life is over, socially. i feel dead to everyone else. i just don't want to be here anymore.

don't worry, i'm not going to kill myself or something. but i am going to be consuming only about 300 calories a day, and that will be at dinner. everything else? fuck that. really fuck it i'm done. if i'm gonna have an eating disorder i'm going to make sure i at least lose weight and get SOMETHING positive out of it.
fuck you bulimia.