I have been way too busy to update, but let's just say that recovery is a BITCH.
I've three times already decided to quit eating again, but mom and dad are too smart. It's funny... I feel like i need to eat so much more than I should now that i'm eating 1500 calories a day. It's like I can either binge or starve but can't do anything in between. (I've actually controlled all my food intake rather well, not going over 1600, but it's pretty tough).
Today one of my friends really offended me. There's this girl in my English class that I'm fairly certain is bulimic because she packs tons of food in during class then goes to the bathroom afterward. I'm tolerant of eating disorders (OBVIOUSLY) and I mentioned to a friend that I think she might be bulimic. He just tells me that because I fucked my metabolism up by starving myself I'm jealous that I can't eat that much food without getting fat. I was so pissed that I left and started crying in my stats class.
So today was a bitch. But honestly, I am actually liking the idea of getting my life back, being free of the scale...
I hope you all are doing well on your weight loss<3 I wish i could join you guys.