Sunday, January 17, 2010

3 failures today.

so last night's craving for ice cream wasn't appeased, and i'm pretty damn proud of myself for that. but today was a serious disaster. my mother woke me up at 9.30 for a "family breakfast" which included biscuits and gravy, eggs (whole eggs, yolk and all), and sausage. ICK. I got away with having oatmeal (160 calories). but i'm upset because i didn't want to eat anything at all this morning. wasn't even hungry.

so that's failure #1.

failure #2: i went out to lunch today with my old best friend, and without thinking i ordered a 450 calorie meal. i had to eat all of it too - i didn't want her to get suspicious. so I ate like 650 calories today, (i always add 40 to be safe) and tonight mom's making meatloaf and mashed potatoes.

one serving of the meatloaf is 260 calories! UGH! and the mashed potatoes are like 300 a serving. i'll get away with only a tiny bit of mashed potatoes probably, and one piece of meatloaf.

i hate this so much. i'm so tired of them ruining my progress.

however, i can fast until dinner tomorrow so that's good! i don't think i'll be under 107 by Wednesday though. I"m pretty sure i'll be still at 108.5 (i'll probably be more, with the way everyone is feeding me).

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. can't forget that.

1 comment:

BlAnCh said...

family meals :( tell me about it
good luck babe, hope you're 107 :)