so i'm officially recovering.

i had a 3500 calorie binge last night - totally freaked out because i felt like i was going to have a heart attack and woke mom and dad up and told them everything. it was about 1 in the morning. of course, this morning i regretted telling them and i was ashamed at myself for getting frightened. but they're getting me help...

i think this actually might not be that bad.

i binged again tonight, just because...well i don't know why. but i finally decided i am not going to act like that anymore, i'm not going to let myself lose control like that. i need to get better, to resolve.... i've lost 16 pounds and i'll be gaining about 4 of them back but i don't really mind i don't think.

i just want to be happy again.

i'm taking a year off college and going to get into massage therapy school, come out with a credential, and i think i'm excited.

but yeah. i'm starting to have to eat 1500 calories a day... it'll be really tough. will you guys hang in there with me?

xx
Sasha Roe

My body is thinning out!

I'm excited. There are nuances in my body I haven't felt in so long. My hip bones are officially sticking out on their own, and my shoulders are losing all the fat so it's just bone right there too. My ribs have always stuck out, but they're becoming more prominent. There is a HUGE space in between my legs and that's where you see the weight loss the most.

It's really hard to cover up - my parents haven't weighed me since Christmas (3 weeks!) but I'm scared I'm not layering enough. No matter what I do there is a huge gap between my legs that just continues to widen and I hope they don't notice it!

Mom's home; I better get off.

So long, lovelies.

xx
Sasha Roe.

I weighed in at 108.6 this morning. You know, anorexia is like playing a game like solitaire where you're always trying to beat your highest score. And every time you get lower, it's nothing but another goal to get even thinner. Anyone else feel the same?
I can't wait till my next weigh in on Wednesday! I'll hopefully be 107.9 or 108.0.

I'll post more later tonight.

much love to the girls that get me,
xx
Sasha Roe

Let me introduce myself.

I'm... Let's call me Sasha Roe. I'm not one to put my name on the internet, when i'm blogging about being anorexic. I'm a pro-ana girl who just "recovered". I'm 5'2, and 17 years old, but I'm a whopping 120 pounds due to the awful month of December. For inspiration, I decided to blog my food eaten for the day. I was so much prettier at 108 and I'm anxious to get to 100 pounds.

It was a merry fucking Christmas. I ate way too much. My mother is obsessed with what I eat ever since she found out in August that I've been starving myself. I'm supposed to be better but I'm not, obviously, because i'm ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY POUNDS. I swore never to hit the 120s again! I hate myself right now. I can't wait to lose it all!

I hope someone will join the ride, it's going to be so fun!

xx

Sasha Roe